This is the Zebra Dance

caoilifhinn said: *hug* …I can’t believe the dr won’t sign you off work :-\ I’m sorry

I waited 7 months for long term disability from Sallie Mae (my last job) and finally gave up on ever getting it and had to find a new job when my psych said I was “better” so I should be able to return to work. They’re not very caring sometimes.

I’m in my third week of work at Chase. I have panic attacks every day because no one listened to me when I said I wasn’t ready to go back to work. Klonopin has been my best friend.

I’m having crazy amounts of suicidal thoughts. I have a pharmacy of pills I could take that will make it a nice, quiet passing. 

I graduate on Saturday and was officially accepted to WGU to finish my degree.

We found a new apartment to move into in July which is closer to my job, and far away from the shithole I live in now.

You’d think I’d be happy and normal since I have good things going on in my life, but nope my mind is still as fucked as it was before.

googlehomo:

fun prank: stand up in the middle of class. run out of the school. keep running. do not turn back. start a new life under a fake name.

my senior year finals are coming up. This might be happening.

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